It is true
Ono Karori
It tells me that today is a sunny day.
A spider's web with water dripping like the needles on a flower dish towel.
A sense of joy welled up inside me in the early hours of the morning, as my mind soon felt clear.
Small minor malfunctions continue
I don't want to do anything, I just want to sleep. I wonder if these days will continue like this every day.
It was a truly, truly unusual three weeks in which I felt physically unwell and even mentally depressed.
Meanwhile, Yasuhideono (husband)
Wear a sauna suit and do some cardio to work up a good sweat
He reads a good novel and sheds tears.
I'm jealous...or rather, it's dazzling.
On the other hand, my wife
I don't even feel like reading. I can barely handle the housework and work.
As soon as I eat dinner, I escape to the world of sleep.
As you get older, some problems will start to appear.
In order to resist this, we try to train and shape ourselves to live a healthy life,
I realized that when I'm not feeling well, I become lethargic.
Because people are healthy, they can move and take care of their health.
And because people cannot imagine themselves being weak when they are invincible,
They tend to be somewhat cold towards those who are in a weak position.
I want to help people who are healthy, even if only a little.
I spent my days reflecting on the fact that I wish I could have that kind of leeway.
I picked it up on the day I was feeling better again.
In a book written by the president of Hanazono Gakuen, a Rinzai sect temple, there was something that seemed to be the answer to the view I saw that morning. (I have summarized a part of it here.)
"Sky is the absence of anything, it's a world without seams, discrimination or boundaries.
Even though we share the same life, we discriminate between people who are healthy, disabled, elderly, young, or sick.
Although lives can be distinguished, they cannot exist in isolation.
Life itself transcends discrimination; at its core, the lives of myself, animals, and plants are all seamless.”
Children are said to be extremely afraid of spiders and hate them.
We are enchanted by the moment when water droplets form a string in the web and the light shines through, creating a sparkling effect.
If everything is connected, even the spiders I hate and the beautiful things that fascinate me,
The scene before your eyes is yourself.
It stirred my heart to think that perhaps there was a part of me that was trying so hard, however fleeting, to be here.
Days passed where I couldn't do anything...
There was a part of me that thought that way.
It was a time for me to once again question myself and the state of the world.
I want to have another great day today.
I think even more.
Thank you for your continued support this week⚪︎
