Because it's just a trivial daily gathering

My husband is coming home today!

I was finally able to go to India, a country that doesn't welcome people easily and won't let people leave, to buy goods after two years.

To everyone who has been looking forward to it, please wait a little longer.

In today's diary, my husband is away.

I would like to write leisurely about the random things that pop into my mind and then disappear from my mind.

February is a bitterly cold month.

I hope you will enjoy reading this in the snug confines of your bed, half asleep.

Please join us!

First day

"Drive My Car and Popcorn"

On the second trip home, I dropped them off at the airport.

I heard a talk about the movie Drive My Car on the radio. I looked it up and found that there was a screening at the right time, so I decided to stop by the movie theater. Thinking back, it had been about 10 years since I last went to the movie theater alone!

I sat there, excited with both hands, holding popcorn and drinks that I could never finish, but the movie was not the kind of thing I could watch while eating. Even though I had mixed feelings, the scenery of the Seto Inland Sea in the movie was beautiful and I was really soothed. I thought the same thing when I crossed into Kagawa, but looking at the Seto Inland Sea makes me feel calm.

I could only eat a little bit of the popcorn, so I decided to take it home. At times like this, I remember the faces of my children.

I realize that I am living with a mindset that I did not have 10 years ago.

When I got home and put the popcorn on the table, my eldest son discovered it.

"Mom bought it for me!"

I was delighted with what happened to be left over...I wondered if this was okay, but I was honestly happy.

"What? You went to the movies alone? What movie?"

I guess it's that surprising...lol

Sunday

"The day I held out one more time"

I always go out with my husband on weekends.

So, I think I'll try to do something I don't normally do when he's not around.

We had plans to go to Fukuoka city for my daughter's exam, so we thought, "Let's go by train!" and took a local train, which was also the first time in several years.

This is my first time riding a train in Fukuoka.

I never go out for a day just the two of us, and it's rare for me to hold her hand and walk at her pace.

As the train I was able to catch passed right in front of me, I thought, "Oh no, I lost 10 minutes..."

I started to feel like I was wasting time, but when I saw my daughter struggling to go up and down the long stairs in the building,

I reflected that there was no loss.

"Today, the thing that made me happiest was that I got a chocolate pen."

He confided this to me on the train ride home, saying he wanted to give me some Valentine's Day sweets.

I was tired from all the travelling, but on Sunday I baked cookies to help her fulfill her desire to make everyone happy.

What happens before going to bed

"Sleep next to mommy"

As expected, the eldest son stopped participating, but before bedtime the three youngest start arguing about which of the two slots on the left and right gets to sleep next to their mother.

Usually the one-year-old and three-year-old win, but my six-year-old daughter still seems to want to be spoiled, so it's always a struggle to persuade her that she's not being fair.

"You see, we slept together until we were five, so I'll let you have it," I say, and she agrees, but then she says, "There are days when I want to sleep with you."

Five minutes after that conversation ended.

"You can sleep next to me tomorrow!"

My three-year-old son popped his head out from under the covers and said to my daughter in a cool, slightly gruff voice.

What a change of heart in five minutes. It's cool, and I'm impressed that he can be considerate of others.

But in the end, those were the two who slept next to each other the next day.

While my youngest child was rolling around by himself, I suddenly found him asleep in the other futon.

The two of them look at it and get excited. Well, it's nice once in a while.

◯ Final day

"Children who seem not to see but are watching"

My oldest son said, "Mommy, you always explode when Dad's not around. I don't see you getting angry this time."

It was hard, but it certainly was!

My in-laws, the other members of Utsushiki, my friends who call out to me, and my children.

I was able to go out alone on my days off, and during these 20 days I was able to identify some things I would like to change.

My husband has returned home, and Hioki's exhibition will start on the weekend of February 26th, so another busy schedule awaits.

This is my daily life. It's interesting to write a random diary because it helps me see my own values ​​and thought patterns.

How do you feel about and live your ordinary days?

"To be moved, you must feel it in your heart.

You just need to open your head.”

My daughter, who was watching anime, took off her headphones and suddenly spoke.

Yes, it would definitely be good to live each day with an open mind.

Please join us in a relaxed atmosphere like this from time to time.

Ono Karori