I'm getting back what I love
Ono Karori
"The first thing Leos will do in the second half of 2021 is rehabilitation. It's about regaining what you love."
About three years ago, Shiitake's fortune telling became a big hit in my house. When I looked at it for the first time in a while, I felt like my heart had been read right into the punch lines that fit perfectly.
"I'm trying to get back the time to feel happy." Yes, that feeling was welling up inside me. (Today I'm quoting more words than the fortune-telling lol)
This was simply because I had heard people around me say "surfing is fun," and now that my daughter is almost 10 months old, my kind parents-in-law told me to come over and look after her, so I was able to have a great time relaxing and having fun by surfing.
My acquaintances suggested that I try bodyboarding because I thought I was bad at sports. I hesitated several times, but...
After trying a few times, I realized that even though it may be difficult, I wanted to experience the joy of being able to do things I couldn't do before, slowly and at my own pace.
Anyway, I was shocked at the world I knew nothing about. I felt a tremendous sense of helplessness and realized that I was nobody on the sea!
An acquaintance of mine once said, "Poor swimmers don't stand out in the ocean, only good swimmers stand out."
I felt bad at it and embarrassed, and I realized firsthand that being conscious of others was a sign of being self-conscious.
Start from the bottom. Cherish the things you're not good at but still get hooked on.
When I was in the first grade of elementary school, I was on the verge of tears because I couldn't carry my skis uphill at the ski resort.
My usually kind father had told me, "If you can't hold your own skis, what will you do during ski lesson?" and I suddenly remembered the memories of climbing up the mountain while crying, skiing without poles, and playing seriously.
I remember learning to stand on my own, not giving up even though I was bad at it, and before I knew it, it had become something I enjoyed.
You can only believe in yourself by accumulating the experiences you have overcome.
Repeating this process is one way to fulfill yourself. It's something you can't get by just affirming yourself in your head.
One more thing.
I'm moving my body more than before, and I want to know more, move more, and observe myself more.
I found a course that was just right for this pure desire, so I decided to take the plunge and start online morning yoga in July. It's a 20-minute combination of yoga and meditation.
I've only just started, but I'd like to continue doing this steadily.
Since we operate as a family, not all of our choices will go the way we want them to. More often than not, things don't go as planned, and there are many times when we get frustrated.
I sometimes envied people who seemed to be enjoying life the way they wanted.
But as your feelings of love grow stronger, you just have to move in that direction, it's very simple.
Don't envy others, but have many people you respect. The music video for "Kiki" from the album of one such person, Miho Ota, was released on the Utsushiki YouTube channel last Friday.
I love this music video. Continuing to watch and deepening your appreciation for something you love is also an important time to face yourself.
Only you can obtain love and happiness.
Let's dive deep into ourselves and explore today.
Ono Kaori
