What the back view fosters
Ono Karori
It's the season when the scent of osmanthus is in the air and the bright orange blossoms catch your eye.
The birthday flower for October 7th is the osmanthus, and its flower language is "humility" and "noble person."
Speaking of birthdays that fall on this day, there are Thom Yorke, Kyosuke Himuro, Toshio Sakata ... and my eldest son lol
On the day of my 12th birthday, there was a workshop and tea ceremony by Nono Kusa and Noso Uchuu .
The celebration was postponed until the following week, and the eldest son was in a slightly bad mood for several days.
Even on special days, when I say "Happy birthday," he often says, "My birthday is on the 7th !"
I was a little disappointed that I wanted someone to celebrate my birthday.
From the day my son was born 12 years ago, I was in a state of confusion as I raised my first child.
The days when I was just crazy about how much I loved you are now a distant memory
I've been thinking lately that my height hasn't changed that much and I don't feel any love for him anymore ...
When I made the requested roll cake, she got so excited and said, "It's delicious!" It was adorable, like a child (and she is a child).
The other day, I suddenly asked my eldest son something.
"Why did you hit your mom so much when you were little ? "
"Because I wanted you to pay attention to me."
And then I checked my answer. I guess that's right.
I grew up in a dual-income household, and I was always the last one to pick up my child from nursery school, and I often had to accompany my mother to work after that.
I remember how lonely it must have been to wait alone in the car in total darkness ...
It's nice to go back to my friend's house and have his mother there.
I never want my child to feel lonely! That's what I thought ...
I felt guilty about prioritizing work and putting my children on the back burner, and there were many times when I blamed myself, thinking that this was not the way I wanted to raise my children .
However, if you think about it carefully
I thought my mother looked cool when she took my child to and from nursery school in heels and a jacket.
I enjoyed listening to the cassette tape music playing while I was waiting alone in the car.
I still find myself humming the songs from that time.
On the other hand, what would have happened if she had refrained from going outside, done household chores she didn't like, and made her life centered around her children ?
I'm sure he did a lot for his children
I accompanied my mother to her flower arranging class, which she enjoyed, and I waited in the car for her.
I think I was more than just sad, I was actually happy to have had a glimpse of what my mother liked.
I feel like I gained a lot just from that.
After all, she worked full-time six days a week, took care of her own lessons, and also took her children to and from their lessons.
Even when I'm busy and feel like giving up, I have to keep trying!
I am so grateful that I was able to think this way by watching my mother.
During the 12 years of raising children, I was able to rewrite my lonely childhood and start thinking positively about it.
I began to be more honest and proactive about doing the things I wanted to do, and as a result, I began to always feel grateful to my children rather than guilty.
As I write this, I find myself telling my child, "I'm writing a sentence right now, so go over there!"
I just need to be careful about how I say things. I still have a lot to learn ... lol
Following the end of the Takashi Ichikawa exhibition at Utsushiki, the Emiowasu exhibition began last weekend on the 21st (Sat).
Emiowasu clothing blends into everyday life, provides firm support for the body, shows beautiful lines, and gives a beautiful view from the back.
Please come and try it on. The event will run until the 30th (Mon).
So, have a great week this week too .
